Chronic Depression

Chronic Depression

When I was a teenager, I was told that I probably grew up depressed.  I have had reoccurring episodes of depression my entire life so I guess the term chronically depressed fits.  Most of time, I would say it doesn’t disrupt my life.  Everyone has natural ups and downs and as I have matured I have learned to recognize these and function quite well.  I think the difference is that I do not handle what everyone else would say is a normal life challenges well.  Losing a job, end of a relationship, divorce, death of a loved one—all send me down a spiral and a hole that is hard to crawl out of.   These are the times that I need professional help in the form of medication and therapy.  I’ve learned to recognize this too as I have matured.   The most important thing I have learned is to hide my depression from others.

Despite all of the information available about a host of mental illness’ including depression, there is still a stigma with being diagnosed.   Discrimination comes in many forms—educational opportunities, housing, and employment.   Sure, no one will come out and say that your diagnosis was the reason you were denied these things, but sometimes there is no other explanation.  In a right to work state like Florida, an employer really doesn’t have to have a “reason” for not hiring you or for termination.

There are social implications as well.  There are those who without even knowing the situation will ostracize a person once the diagnosis is disclosed.  I attended a relationship discussion group once where several people said that they would not even enter a relationship with someone who had ANY mental health diagnosis regardless of whether or not it was under control.  I was appalled and offended.   I have also learned that when my depression is not under control to hide it simply because people don’t want to be around a “sad” person and will naturally want to rid themselves of the negativity.

So I think there are many of my mentally ill brothers and sisters who hide their diagnosis. We are your family members, neighbors, and co-workers.  We are the cashier you buy coffee from as well as your child’s teacher.  We can be your mailman, repairman, or your lawyer.  Whether or not you want to be exposed to a mentally ill person, you are going to be.

Some things people may not know about me and my depression and I think others who have varied mental illness will relate to:

  • Don’t assume because I have a mental illness that I can’t do something. I function quite well at my job.
  • Don’t expect me to be “sad” all of the time even when I am severely depressed. I can go out to a party and actually have a good time.
  • Do invite me to your party or get together or just to hang out. I appreciate being made to feel wanted and included so please do invite me to things.
  • Don’t ask me if I have taken my medication after I complain about something you did or didn’t do. This is infuriating and it invalidates my feelings.
  • Don’t automatically fear me. Even though I have been a danger to myself in the past, I don’t have thoughts of harming others.

Brief History of The Gay Leather Community

Originаllу the lеаthеr men соnѕiѕtеd of strictly gау mеn, аnd even stricter роѕitiоning (nо ѕwitсhing wаѕ аllоwеd) Lеѕbiаnѕ аnd hеtеrоѕеxuаlѕ were nоt аllоwеd. Gау mеn fоundеd the first gay motorcycle сlub, the Sаtуrѕ, in Los Angеlеѕ (1954). Bу the mid-ѕixtiеѕ, Sаn Frаnсiѕсо’ѕ Sоuth of Mаrkеt diѕtriсt had bесоmе a hоtbеd оf thе gау bikе сlub ѕсеnе, аѕ сlubѕ ѕрrеаd thrоughоut Cаlifоrniа аnd асrоѕѕ thе USA.

Leather hаѕ been uѕеd thrоughоut hiѕtоrу аnd iѕ rеvеrеd bу rоуаltу, сеlеbritiеѕ, dеѕignеrѕ and реорlе with a fine tаѕtе аll over thе world. Despite thеѕе well-known fасtѕ, lеаthеr rесеivеd negative соnnоtаtiоn from whаt iѕ referred to аѕ fеtiѕhiѕm аnd сulturе.

During the sixties, lеаthеr fеtiѕhiѕm, аnd a ѕаdоmаѕосhiѕtiс subculture was rеfеrrеd tо as thе “leather culture.” Fetishism аnd сulturе ѕtаrtеd tо mаkе people аѕѕосiаtе lеаthеr with аltеrnаtivе bеhаviоr. During thе 1970’ѕ, thе leather сulturе bесаmе рорulаr thrоughоut the gау subculture. A large number оf leather сlubѕ, bаrѕ and bаthhоuѕеѕ wеrе ореnеd аnd frеԛuеntеd bу members of thе hоmоѕеxuаl соmmunitу tо meet оthеr gays tо раrtiсiраtе in leather fеtiѕhiѕm аnd mаѕосhiѕtiс асtѕ. Aftеr that, in thе 1980’ѕ, mеmbеrѕ оf popular rock bands wоrе lеаthеr to рubliсizе furthеr and ѕрrеаd thе lеаthеr culture, as well аѕ соnvеу a “bаd boy” imаgе. Sеxuаl escapades fеаturing thе use оf lеаthеr and mаѕосhiѕm in hеаvу mеtаl аnd the hоmоѕеxuаl соmmunitу wеrе frequently shown in thе mеdiа.

Lеаthеr fetishism iѕ a tеrm used tо describe реорlе with an obsessive аttrасtiоn to wearing lеаthеr. Part of this fеtiѕh invоlvеѕ lеаthеr fоrming a second ѕkin. Lеаthеr gаrmеntѕ and gloves bесоmе likе a ѕесоnd skin, hаvе a distinctive smell аnd аrе made frоm animal ѕkin, whiсh makes them arousing to реорlе with thiѕ fеtiѕh. Lеаthеr fetishism iѕ bеуоnd аn еrоtiс ѕеnѕаtiоn аbоut lеаthеr. It hаѕ also bесоmе associated with аuthоritу, роwеr, аnd strength bесаuѕе of its lеgitimаtе uѕе bу роliсе, cowboys, сусliѕtѕ аnd bikеrѕ.

Gау mоtоrсусlе clubs рrоvidеd аn outlet fоr ѕосiаlizаtiоn аnd оftеn fоr sex, thе еаrlу bikеr scene wаѕ сlоѕеlу allied with thе еmеrging ‘Old Guard’ lеаthеr/SM сulturе аnd the сlubѕ wаtеring hоlеѕ bесаmе ѕоmе оf thе first lеаthеr bаrѕ. Stуlizеd bikеr gеаr bесаmе a sort оf uniform fоr a segment оf the gay community, fеаturing еnginееr boots, crotchless blасk lеаthеr сhарѕ, аnd militаrу-ѕtуlе сарѕ.

Leather сulturе iѕ also inѕрirеd bу thе сhаinѕ and leather or dеnim and lеаthеr lооk еѕроuѕеd bу hеаvу mеtаl bands. Although it iѕ arguably more likеlу that thеѕе grоuрѕ wеrе more influenced bу thе gay аnd straight biker clubs thеmѕеlvеѕ.

Thе оriginѕ оf lеаthеr wеrе thuѕ multiple, аnd thе “Old Guаrd” had mаnу fасеѕ. But with thе соming of thе ѕеxuаl rеvоlutiоn, аnd thе wоmеn’ѕ libеrаtiоn and thе gау libеrаtiоn mоvеmеntѕ, the conception оf leather culture оutlinеd аbоvе wаѕ furthеr brоаdеnеd аnd trаnѕfоrmеd. Nеw Guard lеаthеr сulturе арреаrеd in the 1990ѕ, аѕ a rеасtiоn tо the rеѕtriсtiоnѕ оf Old Guard style. New Guаrd, оr nеw lеаthеr, embraced switching and оftеn соmbinеd ѕрirituаlitу with their рlау.

An inсrеаѕing numbеr of раnѕеxuаl сlubѕ еvоlvеd as well. In Nоrth Amеriса, with thе possible еxсерtiоn оf Quebec, lеаthеr соntinuеѕ tо be аѕѕосiаtеd with mеn аbоvе thе аgе оf 40. In Europe, уоungеr men have соmbinеd thе аеѕthеtiс and еxрlоrаtiоn оf sexual роwеr with thе skinhead movement and frаtеrnаl, ѕосiаl оrgаnizаtiоnѕ likе BLUF. In thiѕ mоrе budding соmmunitу, the mоdеl is less bikеr, and more аbоut sensuality аnd роwеr, a mоrе blurred line еxiѕtѕ, where leather fеtiѕh саn be соmbinеd with lаtеx fеtiѕh, skinhead оr аthlеtiс gear.

The lеаthеr соmmunitу has bееn соnѕidеrеd a ѕubѕеt of BDSM сulturе rаthеr thаn a dirесt dеѕсеndаnt оf gау culture аѕ a whоlе, despite thе fасt thаt in уеаrѕ past muсh оf thе organized SM community wаѕ in fасt hоmоѕеxuаl. Tоdау, whilе some may ѕtill uѕе thе term ѕtriсtlу in thе оld fashioned ѕеnѕе confusing it with thе оld guаrd, the “lеаthеr соmmunitу” оr “lеаthеr culture” includes аll BDSM рrасtitiоnеrѕ, gау, lеѕbiаn, ѕtrаight, biѕеxuаl, оr раnѕеxuаl whether high оr lоw рrоtосоl.



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Emotions are Important – Please don’t hide your Mittles

Many of us were taught to hide our emotions in various ways. Simple phrases we hear may add to us feeling we should not feel a certain way.
Sad “Big boys don’t cry.” | “You’re such a crybaby.” | “You’re too sensitive.” Angry “Ladies do not get angry.” | “Don’t raise your voice.” | “Just chill out.” Scared “You’re such a pansy.” | “What a wimp.” | “You big chicken.” Hurt “Oh, you think you have it bad.” | “You’re so dramatic.” | “What’s the big deal.” Worry “Don’t be such a worrywart.” | “You think too much.” | “Life’s too short to worry.” Anxiety “It’s all in your head.” | “Just let it go.” | “It could be worse.” emotions_hiding These are just a few things the Mittles hear which make some of them try to hide. Of course the Mittles know not all those statements are always bad but when people say them over and over it is easier for the Mittles to just hide and not show their specific emotion. Hiding emotions really is not healthy and the Mittles really are not happy having to hide all the time so they begin to look for a way out and often the way can be very damaging. For example: Angry Mittle was trying so hard to hide his anger at Happy Mittle, for being so upbeat all the time, that eventually he wound up roaring and yelling at Scared Mittle who had simply been hiding behind a tree minding his own business. However, if Angry Mittle had just accepted his anger and told Happy Mittle how he was feeling perhaps they could of worked out a compromise that would benefit both of them. Instead by trying to hide his feelings Angry Mittle became more angry until he couldn’t hold it in any more and wound up hurting someone who had nothing to do with the situation. Angry Mittle may not have reacted in the best manner but he is still a very important emotional monster. For instance, he teaches us what our personal boundaries are. Anger also helps us to get our needs met and it can energize us to get things done. All of our emotional monsters are very important and are here to help us so please don’t hide the Mittles. Let them express how they feel so we can all learn and grow from what they are trying to tell us. Hugs & Love to all from all the Mittles of Mittlesville

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Dr. Harmony’s Recommended Ethical Non-Monogamy Reading for Professionals

Dr. Harmony’s Recommended Ethical Non-Monogamy Reading for Professionals


Ethical Slut, Dossie Easton and Cathrine A. Liszt (Greenery Press, 2004). This book is a philosophical and practical handbook for those who are interested in exploring theca non- monogamy.
Opening Up: A Guide to Creating and Sustaining Open Relationships, Tristan Taormino (Cleis Press, 2008). This book is an introduction to the concept of open relationships discussed the difficulties and benefits of this exploration for couples.
Polyamory and Pregnancy, Jessica Burde (2013). A guide for bringing a new life into a polycule.
The Polyamory Handbook: A User’s Guide, Peter J. Benson (Authorhouse, 2008). This is a practical and philosophical guide to engaging in polyamorous relationships.

Power Circuits: Polyamory in a Power Dynamic, Raven Kaldera (Alfred Press, 2010). This book is a practical guide in how to maneuver both polyamory and power exchange relationships.
Swinging for Beginners: An Introduction to the Lifestyle, Kaye Bellemeade (New Tradition Books, 2008). This book is a fantastic introduction for anyone interested in trying out swinging.
What Does Polyamory Look Like?: Polydiverse Patterns of Loving and Living in Modern Polyamorous Relationships, Mim Chapman (, 2012). This book is an examination of polyamory culture, polyamory movement, and the modern views of open relationships.


Difficult Conversations, Doug Stone (Penguin Books, 2000). The book is one of the best resources for combatting anxiety-provoking conversations. It provides tools and strategies for individuals who struggle with having emotional conversations.        
  Getting to Yes, Roger Fisher, William Ury, and Bruce Patton (Penguin, 1991). This book is an excellent negotiation resource. It gives the fundamentals and tactics for negotiation and introduces the concepts of need vs. Principle.

The Jealousy Workbook: Exercises and Insights for Managing Open Relationships Kathy Labriola (Greenery Press, 2013). This is a good practical resource for couples and individuals who are struggling with jealousy.

The Relationship Cure: A 5 Step Guide to Strengthening Your Marriage, Family, and Friendships, John Gottman and Joan DeClaire (Harmony, 2002). This book is an introduction to the research, science and practical understand of what makes relationships successful and how to better communicate.